Wednesday, March 31, 2010

"Are you sick?"

So there are people in your family that you only see at weddings, funerals and showers, right? I got to see some of them a few weeks ago at my grandfather's funeral. Some of the reactions I got were pretty funny. My brother's girlfriend told me that several people had made comments about my weight loss and at least one wanted to know if I was sick. My grandmother decided that the cemetery was the place to tell me that I was getting too thin (really, she couldn't even wait for us to get back to the church?). My former step-mother confirmed that she had heard people wondering if I was doing some crazy diet but since she is one of my workout buddies, she let them know that I was doing everything in a healthy way - eating less and exercising more.

I did get quite a few nice compliments, but it was hard to enjoy them because there are only so many times you can hear that people think you are anorexic before it ruins your day. LOL! I think a few people were watching me eat at the dinner after the service (seriously). One of my uncles started to say something and I think he could tell that I wasn't in the mood, so he decided to leave it at "You look good, just don't lose any more." HA! HA!

However, I did decide to re-evaluate my goal weight. Even though it is on the high side of what every chart/website says someone my height should weigh, maybe it's too low for me personally. My husband actually told me the other day that he thought I should stop trying to lose more weight and just focus on maintaining and getting toned. I'm not sure yet. I do know that I have to get back to my workout schedule and I need to get focused on the strength training, so I guess that is what I will try to do for at least the next month and see what happens.

I'm back...did you miss me? LOL!

It has been almost a month since I posted. No, I didn't fall off the face of the earth. LOL! I have been working almost non-stop for the past month. I am self-employed, so I don't have normal hours or any real "days off". I just work when I have work to do and for the past month or two, there has been a lot to do. I just finished my list of what I have to do tomorrow and I finally stopped when I got to item #20.

Since my last post, I've had some good things happen. I turned 39 on March 5th and had a wonderful birthday celebration with my family. I've also had some bad things happen. My grandfather had been sick for several months and he died on March 12th. For the first few days after he died, I did really well. I was able to focus on all of the wonderful things we did as a family and I felt truly blessed that he was able to be a part of so many major events in my life (my wedding, the birth of my children, etc.). I can honestly say that I don't have one bad memory of my grandfather, so every time I thought of him, I smiled. But at his funeral, I really fell apart. I know that we were all lucky to have had him with us for 80+ years that we had him, but that day was so sad for me. I was really in a fog for the next few days. I managed to work, but if I had to tell you what I actually did during those days, I'm not sure I could. Luckily I am feeling much better now and I keep hearing that each day will get a little easier, so I'm holding on to that.

So how has my diet been? HA! HA! Well, I wish I could say that I have been working out like crazy and sticking to my diet. I guess I could say it, but I'd be lying. I've been lucky to get more than a couple of walks in each week and the 5 pounds I lost when I was sick is all back. I actually have some funny stories to share about my family's reaction to my weight loss (some of the people I saw at the funeral hadn't seen me in quite some time), but I will save that for tomorrow post.

I hope all of you have been doing great while I've been "away" and I can't wait to catch up on all of your blogs!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

I'm normal

Well, I'm probably not "normal" in life, but I am normal according to my BMI chart. When I started trying to lose weight, my BMI was 30. Right on the Overweight/Obese line. As of Monday, I have crossed into the Normal range. I think it's only by about half a pound, but I don't care. I still have a few more pounds to go in order to reach my goal, so hopefully by the time I get there I will be squarely in the Normal range.

It has been another crazy work week for me. I have been going non-stop from the time I get up until I go to bed. Not great for the exercise schedule. I've managed to get some walking in, but not much else. This weekend I have promised myself that no matter what work is waiting for me (yes, I work weekends too), I am going to set aside time for myself to do 2 really great workouts. I don't know if I will go to the gym or try to get outside for a 4-5 mile walk each day, but whatever I do, I know I will enjoy it. I didn't realize how much I would miss working out.

Hope everyone is having a great week!

Monday, March 1, 2010

Sybil is at it again

It feels like I haven't posted in forever! I had such a crazy work week last week and I wound up with a nasty cold. I didn't exercise at all last week, but I also had very little appetite and when I finally did eat, nothing tasted good (it's hard to find something yummy when you are all stuffed up!). I really wasn't sure what to expect for today's weigh in. I thought I would be down a little (because I felt kind of smaller), but I was in for a shock. According to Sybil, I am down 5 pounds from last week. Apparently lots of work + no appetite = weight loss. That is not the formula I plan to start using, but until last week I had been really good about working out and eating "normal" but healthier choices, so I am not going to beat myself up for losing weight the "wrong" way last week. I felt much better over the weekend, so today I got right back into my exercise routine with a 30 minute walk this morning. I am looking forward to getting back to my work out schedule. I had no idea I would miss it so much!

I have a ton of catching up to do on everyone's blogs, so if you see a new comment from a post you wrote 4 days ago, it's probably just me. LOL! Hopefully this week will be just a little calmer and I will be able to post more. I hope you all have a great day!